All of a sudden
darkness falled
spiral and twisting
thick like fog
my sight faded
memories came back

All of a sudden
streetlights lighted
flickering along road side
pointing to uncertainty
then the armor broke
all this time
i'm still in vain

"How is it?"
all of a sudden
I felt to ask
"Still remember?"
"Sure."
the spirit of urge
the urge of danger
the want of self-destruction
the need to taste it again
the feelings of death

all of a sudden
I felt the eager to lose control
rising and rising
along with anger and madness
spreading across vein
the eage came back

all of a sudden
I knew it could not be avoid
so many years
again
my eyes wet
and it emerged

always
loneliness
drove me higher and lower
waving like whip
I almost so used to it
dodged the most
then the tip
lashed with the dreading whisper
"here you are"
you appeared.

to be continued