本文发表在 rolia.net 枫下论坛It’s been a long time since we spoke over the phone five years ago when I went back to China. I went back again a couple of times after that in recent year, but I didn’t contact you, not that I don’t want to, because I don’t know what to say to you. You may wonder why I wrote this to you now; it is because today is Thanksgiving and I wanted to tell you something :)
I miss you. I miss you not only because you are the first girl to whom I said "I love you" and you are the first girl who said “so do I” to me, but also in deep of my heart, I still care about you.
I am also sorry (here I am once again apologizing to you) for the mistakes I made before. I knew I had chance we could be together, but I screwed up.
I had chance when you accepted me, but I didn’t take the opportunity because I felt it would be like I took advantage of you if I did in that situation. That was so naive.
Remember that night when you told me you want to break up, I was crying like a little baby in front of you. I realize now that at that moment, the last respect you had for me was just simply disappeared. How one person could love another without respect? But what you probably didn’t know is how much I loved you and my heart was broken at that time. Anyway, I’m not proud of that either.
A few years after, we met again, I decided to leave you in the end because I could not stand to see you struggling in the relationship after I asked you for a second chance, but I made one either the most stupid or the smartest move before I left. I asked you “tell me you don’t love me”, I almost expected that answer because I knew that would be the only reason I could let you go and walk away without coming back, so I could finally move on and get over you. I did move on, but what I didn’t realize until now is I could not really get over you. Even now I still wonder sometimes what if I asked you “Do you still love me?” instead. Anyhow, what past is passed, nothing will change it.
I want to thank you for the letters you wrote to me, the birthday card you sent me, especially the time you spent with me no matter it was happy or sad moment. Life is short, before it is too late, I want to let you know I still miss you and I still love you (of course in a different way now) and I wish you happy forever.
P.S. I couldn't reach her because her email address is no longer available, that is the only contact information I have. I post this letter here hoping she would find it someday.更多精彩文章及讨论，请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net
I miss you. I miss you not only because you are the first girl to whom I said "I love you" and you are the first girl who said “so do I” to me, but also in deep of my heart, I still care about you.
I am also sorry (here I am once again apologizing to you) for the mistakes I made before. I knew I had chance we could be together, but I screwed up.
I had chance when you accepted me, but I didn’t take the opportunity because I felt it would be like I took advantage of you if I did in that situation. That was so naive.
Remember that night when you told me you want to break up, I was crying like a little baby in front of you. I realize now that at that moment, the last respect you had for me was just simply disappeared. How one person could love another without respect? But what you probably didn’t know is how much I loved you and my heart was broken at that time. Anyway, I’m not proud of that either.
A few years after, we met again, I decided to leave you in the end because I could not stand to see you struggling in the relationship after I asked you for a second chance, but I made one either the most stupid or the smartest move before I left. I asked you “tell me you don’t love me”, I almost expected that answer because I knew that would be the only reason I could let you go and walk away without coming back, so I could finally move on and get over you. I did move on, but what I didn’t realize until now is I could not really get over you. Even now I still wonder sometimes what if I asked you “Do you still love me?” instead. Anyhow, what past is passed, nothing will change it.
I want to thank you for the letters you wrote to me, the birthday card you sent me, especially the time you spent with me no matter it was happy or sad moment. Life is short, before it is too late, I want to let you know I still miss you and I still love you (of course in a different way now) and I wish you happy forever.
P.S. I couldn't reach her because her email address is no longer available, that is the only contact information I have. I post this letter here hoping she would find it someday.更多精彩文章及讨论，请光临枫下论坛 rolia.net